Thursday, July 27, 2006

"My heart is broken... there's nothing to break" - Robbie Williams

The wheels made contact with the tarmac as the sizzling sun hangs majestically under the Bangkok sky. As I took a deep breath, a stench most foul, reeked across the cabin and greeted me in all its grandeur. In no time at all, someone barfed. It was only a 2 hour flight. Geez…

I was absolutely astounded by this city. Cited for all its cheap stuff and prostitutes, it begged to differ as it was much more than that. The traffic was un-orderly, vehicles just whiz by each other in-between lanes and pedestrians. Erected amongst the boulevard of traffic were advertisement boards. Not just one or two, hundreds of them.

"My heart is broken... there's nothing to break" - Robbie Williams

After a long day’s visit to my client’s factory, I took it upon myself to unwind a little… A drink or two won’t hurt. I decided to make my way to the nearest pub on the last night of my escapade in Thailand.

CM2 is located at the basement of Novotel in Siam Square. It was 9pm (Singapore time) and the place was deserted. Apart from a couple of Red necks playing pool at a table on the far end, the place was only jam-packed with the music blaring from the speakers. I ordered my usual, took a seat in the corner of the room and waited for the venue to populate. So that I could begin my usual clubbing activity – People watch.

Colonization commenced at about 10-ish. And I realized one very significant statistic, men were outnumbered. I was overawed as I panned my vision across the dance floor only to my amazement that there were gorgeous women all around. They were not sprinkled across the club, they were packed into it.

What the heck, I established eye contact with a “miss universe contestant” lookalike. And soon enough, we were talking.

“Where’re u from?” I casually asked
“Columbia” said she
“What’re u doin’ here? Shopping?”
“For work”
“What do you do for a living?”
“I have sex in exchange for money”

My mind just went dead. What on earth is such a beautiful specimen of a woman selling herself here? She offered her services to me and I tried to change the topic. My inquisitive mind, however, succumbed.

From my enqueries, I realized that all the women there were “working”. Latino Americans, Russians and locals alike. With my mouth still agape, I thanked her for her time and left the table.

I stood at another area recollecting my thoughts and tried to straighten my thoughts up. The liquor was cheap so I was able to afford more than usual. Then, I saw her. It will forever be etched in my mind. The local looked so much like her, my ex. They were like carbon copies.

How would one’s life get any worse? Traveling across two borders and into another time zone, I still managed to bump into someone resembling her.
Was I suffering the after effects from the alcohol?
Was it a reality or just another pathetic hallucination from my overactive mind?

Go figure

39 comments:

Anonymous said...

if you resign yourself to the fact that you cant escape from heartache & you'll always be alone no matter who you're with, its not so bad.

"this world is only gonna break your heart" - chris isaak, 'wicked games'

Anonymous said...

Haha...wait till you hear my frenz's version of his Gay pub experience in Thai....

WoooHooooo....Thailand is really an eye opener man....

Unknown said...

well.. you know my alcohol level..
it aint that bad..
she definately looked like you.. her grins, her giggles..

and after all that...
she just isnt you...

no worries..
i didnt slp with her..

Anonymous said...

you just havent forget about her. that's one reason why i left.

Anonymous said...

Love
"We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly." - Author unknown -

To prevent confusion, just let u know that the only frog story , talent quote and this love quote are came from the same person, just name me QQ

trying to forget a person that u love really need time, is not easy, mayb u forever cannot forget
her , mayb u could .. depend how much u love

For U , I know U will never forget her until u really fall in love again..

yeah, to fall in love again is not easy , so be focus and not to be distracted by others when u fall in love again..

anonymous above, I know u are still waiting for him actually, mayb u must accept the fact that there is still a space that he unable to let go in his heart , to forget someone needs months or years, mayb forever he also unable to forget..
because he did really deeply in love



(QQ)

Unknown said...

I appreciate your comments QQ.
Thank you

Anonymous said...

Come on ppl...

I don't think its Will's fault for not being able to put down his past.

Let him to express his own experiences...his opinions...his emotions...

Wei said...

Nabeh, all these anonymous comments are making my blains slur reading them.

Will, come on, we know you did love her deepy. But dun be so nostalgic in your post can not? Make people think you suicidal or something.

You got INCREMENT leh! U should be happy, okie?

Heee...

Anonymous said...

ladies and gentlemen, let us try to put things in their "proper" perspective once and for all.

will here just can't let go SIMPLY bcos:

she rejected him AND dumped him,
she is happy now and NOT with him,
he realized that he had been such a jerk, a tireless Player and NOW, a wuss.
and guess what, it is just too late.

won't you EVER learn to get your act together? don't you even realize that in her eyes now, not only were you all of the above, you are NOW a sorry excuse for a man? and did you even stop to think how her new guy must be thinking now? i can almost imagine that smirk on his face while he kisses your ex-girl.

please TRY not to look too pathetic or you might as well kiss your Player career goodbye. just please get a life!

Unknown said...

well...
i would like to thank those who left their names along with their comments.

if somehow or rather,
i still miss/love her,
it wont bother anyone.

these posts are meant to be an insight to my thoughts and experiences.

dont judge me.
cos you're not worth it.

Anonymous said...

u whine abt ur broken heart, fishing for pity then hope she see ur doing fine without her.

yada yada yada yada, pls change topic. it's getting old

Anonymous said...

Why does everyone seem to have a problem with Will? Let him do what he wants, say what he wants and just give the poor guy a break.

I'm seriously sorry for you... Some people obviously can't get over you... But hey, who's complaining... At least people remember you... They actually read your blog so they do give a shit about you...

Anyway, it's time you be happy again... You sound 'old' when you're sad... haha... No offence...

Can't tell you who I am... I'm just that psycho crazy girl you once knew...

Anyway, SMILE... Life isn't that bad when you have people who cares right by your side...

Unknown said...

since when did i whine about my heart..
say only if you have something constructive...
or else everything will just be verbal diarrhoea...

Anony 2:
crazy girl?
well.. i know alotta crazy girls..
who are u?

Anonymous said...

Umm, relax my dear... Why sound so pissed?

I have my reasons for not revealing who I am... But does it seriously matter... I'm probably some insignificant person you met a while ago... You probably can't even remember me... So no point...

Anyway, just wanna see you happy again...

Love your blog by the way...

rach. said...

player eh, Will? tsk tsk tsk

didn't know you had so many things to play with. HAHA. Ok, that was bad.

Hope you got some rest last night. =)

Unknown said...

hmm.. wait..

anony (crazy person): please tell me who you are. no one is insignificant.

and besides, my "piss"(so to speak) is directed at the other anony.

Anonymous said...

I agree with anonymous no. 5 (sorry I had to label them with numbers).

Give Will a break. We all have a past, and we all have these times to deal with. Whether he's a player or not, it's not for anyone to judge. He will know himself better.

And how he leads his life, is his problem. We are all just onlookers. Or perhaps, we once made an insignificant step in his life, but no longer does. So stop bugging him about his feelings. He has a right to feel how he wants to and write what he wants to.

Life is not what you've gained and lost, but it's about the things you've done and not regret.

Cheer up, Will.

Wei said...

Hi people,

Fwah got show to see again!

Okie I digressed.

We all have different facets to us. In real life, I know Will has ALREADY gotten over his ex and moved on happily and positively.

But memories would always be an intergrated part of what makes us today.

Some things could never be replaced, some people would always be missed.

So, why the fark cannot blog about it? Nabeh, his blog leh.

Wah lau, hate anonymous spammers.

rach. said...

ok, why can't you people give yourselves some kind of nickname even if you want to remain anonymous. It's confusing though entertaining.

I have to agree with Wei, Will has moved on happily. These are just his own musings, merely a part of the fundamental intricacies of one's mind. It IS his blog anyway.

Wei said...

Yeah you go Rach.

Nabeh.

Jess said...

Hmmm... different people have different perception...

Guess there ain't no right or wrong.

Take care!

Anonymous said...

Amidst all the bitching, ranting and dissing, you have to congratulate yourself and feel all smug, babe -- you are now a certified stud!

I mean, how else do you explain all these attention, right? Heck, why don't you just screw the pissed anony girls to shut them up for good? Hahaha.

If you don't wanna be played at, don't bite the bullet. If you do wanna play with Will, then brace yourself for a roller coaster ride. If you wanna be the next girl of his dreams -- you have to try harder.

He's neither a sinner nor a saint but everything that's in between at least deserves to be understood. And yea, he's yummy, so who's complaining?

(Told ya I'd come to your "rescue." Don't let these loony and uptight girls get you down).

Sweet you rock, sweet you roll, baby! ;p

ps/ nickname, eh? call me BS (hi, QQ. Haha)-- another loony but at least knows what she wants. shut up, Will ;)

Anonymous said...

Be focus, Learn from mistake, look forward and dun influence by negative voices around u

continue to sing, dun give up, continue to play music
never give up ,Dun throw away ur interest and passion..
because u has the talent compare to ordinary, not the best but better than ordinary..
learning to grow mature,
be confident, yes u need, me too,

a friend is to motivate and encourage

Ur friend
QQ

Anonymous said...

wah lao ehz....damn confusing ne~~

Anonymous said...

Sorry to the kind anonymous who typed this.
But he don't deserve such kindness.

Picking up your lines:
I'm seriously sorry for you...
>>> Yes. People should.

Some people obviously can't get over you...
>>> Of course, people can't forget someone they hate.

But hey, who's complaining...
>>> Many are.

At least people remember you...
>>> Same reason as above. They can't forget someone like him in a bad way.

They actually read your blog so they do give a shit about you...
>>> No. They don't. They give a shit to nice people like you who thought he is sad and needs attention.

rach. said...

to the anonymous above.

Let's see. Will screwed you over and now you feel like a dipshit for letting him get the better of you.

Boo hoo.

Go take all that angst elsewhere.

Wei said...

Hurhurhur...

Mack was right. They should tear down the statue of the Merlion at the Esplanade and build one of your middle finger.

Then at least these girls could go there and write "Been there, done that, you KNN $#%^$^&^&)*&*&!"

Haha..

Hey but Rach just hit a bullseye on them!

Anonymous said...

MR. BRISHTSIDE

Coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking the drag

Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now

He takes off her dress now
Let me go
And I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullaby
Joking on your alibi
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
I'm Mr. Brightside

(repeat)

*kisses fr BS*

Anonymous said...

Boo Hoo.
I'm not as magnanimous as you.

Will screwed you and left you with a broken heart. He's never serious about you. Not in the past, present or future.

Prepare to hear sweet talk from him again, saying that it isn't true.

Jess said...

Hmmm.. Sweet talk...?

Maybe they should build his sweet lips beside his middle finger then~

glowbubble said...

damn! that's alot of drama for one entry.. Kudos to that! :)

gelatogirl said...

Just dropped by to say hi...ALAMAK!!! 33 comments...i didn't even read the blog, just clicked to see what the schites was about...hahahahhahahhahhahahah!!!!!

Oh by the way, watch 'Click' its HILARIOUS!

-Tanya-

gelatogirl said...

Oh I'm back at this comment page coz i know if i commented on the previous one, i duno if you'll get to see it...
But i scrolled down after the first comment was sent, and saw this huge slab on yellow yellow...
And some pictures!!!

Cannavaro...that his name?
Oh he hawt!!!
Podolski was good, to me la...coz i don really watch soccer, but when i did, he was good...oh well!

-Tanya-

Anonymous said...

OMG... just one person can shut everyone up... not a compliment by the way...

Unknown said...

Always the final word to satisfy your schizophrenic mind.

Its my turn to make a stitch that will save nine in time.

Anonymous said...

here we go its the o.c all over again!

Anonymous said...

Well...I guess I dun knw u well but do find ur blogs interesting:) Anyways, cheer up Will and for the rest of ya BUGGER OFF!!! for goodness sake its a damn blog!!! pple are suppose to write wat they feel w/o being judged!! So screw all the losers whom juz hve a bone to pick wif Will ya?? =P

carol said...

people do have look-alike.it's a good thing that u didnt. Thailand is filled with AIDS.

glowbubble said...

yawn~ will you update already? :P